Solitary confinement:

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

2010-07-05T05:37:00.000-07:00

Numerous entries left unpublished.

One rainy day.

2010-06-22T03:29:00.000-07:00

It was a rainy day. I'm out, all cold and scratchy. School just started and yet, much things to think about. Yea, school-wise, that's not something new. I guess it's what I am thinking outside the boundaries of school that's making me all weary and gloomy.

As I looked out the car window on my way home, an insight jolted inside my head: YOU CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY. Crappy things do happen. It gets into you. But that doesn't mean that you'll let those devour your real self. Work for change. And I guess everything will follow. So much about fixing a broken mirror. *sigh

2010-06-12T03:13:00.000-07:00

A picture to conclude an awesome 2 days with my friends before classes starts. :)

Wish I was her.. No one in particular.

2010-03-18T10:05:00.000-07:00

Always knew that when we said goodbye
It wouldn't last forever
Always thought that I'd run into you
And we'd get back together........

Now you're here
Just like I imagined
But never once did it cross my mind
That you could move on.......

You've found someone
It breaks my heart
Cuz you're so in love

[Chorus]
I wish that my touch
Makes you smile just like that
And I wish that I had you
the way that she has
Cuz I still remember the love
I left behind
Oh I wish I was her
And you were mine

I think somebody's tryin' to talk to me
But I can't hear a word they're saying
All I can do is stare at you
I don't even know why I'm staying
Never thought, I'd cry to see you Happy Its Just I Thought that your happiness
Was right here with me

I know we're through
It's no use
Still I can't help but feel......

There's no place on earth
That I'd rather be (rather be)
Cuz I still remember the love
I left behind
Oh I wish I was her
And you were mine

I used to be right beside you (oh no)
Now I'm not even kept inside your heart (oh no)
I put our love upon a shadow
But now it's gone
Cuz you belong to someone else.......

~some song stuck in my head then again.

Never check your phone for the time.

2010-03-03T02:59:00.000-08:00

A lot of things had kept me preoccupied for the past days. School stuff as usual. Nothing new. Yet, other things get me even busier. I'm sponsoring this certain person for his Days weekend. OH gosh. I had to cut a couple of my classes just to finish everything! 2 more days. Crap. I'm running out of time! Somebody help meeee! :(

Today isn't my day. My phone just got confiscated. Oh crap. Perfect timing. Can I die now?

In the brink of random consciousness

2010-03-02T02:30:00.000-08:00

"Choice tore us apart but Destiny will bring us together."

Criticisms can't put me down.

2010-03-01T22:35:00.000-08:00

"Criticism may not be agreeable, but it is necessary. It fulfills the same function as pain in the human body. It calls attention to an unhealthy state of things."

-Winston Churchill

*And so it is. I should take criticisms constructively, right? :) Like what they say, You can never put a good woman down! Weee. :D

Behind what my eyes can see.

2010-02-26T19:56:00.000-08:00

Photo credits: Raf Villarica

My eyes were able to see never before seen realities of life today. I may not be able to describe verbatim how I truly felt as my sight ran through the whole vicinity of the mental institution. I barely imagine the possibility that the patients will get better with that environment they are in. Here's the thing: How in the world will a mentally challenged person get well when in fact, he/she is surrounded with people of the same status? Geez. I need to have a good grasp of the logic behind this.

BF celebrated Jem's birthday also today. A surprise for her at Benavides, dinner at Sicilian and a fun and funny photo-op after. Great day! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JEREMY GILE! :D

Greenwoods welcomes BF

2010-02-22T19:08:00.000-08:00

In what better way to celebrate your special day with the people closest to your heart?--Overnight stay! :D

MIA: Pauline. :(

SOULMATE, CUPCAKE, ANAK, DUDE, CHUM, HON, PARTNER, BUDDY, MY THERAPIST, SEATMATE, SADNESS COLLECTOR, CHEER GIVER:

Thank you so much! You guys rock! Much love! ♥

BF Patrolers.

2010-02-19T18:57:00.000-08:00

Another complete shot with my crew. :)

A night of head-banging music and picture perfect fun.

Unfinished business ties you to the past.

2010-02-16T09:54:00.000-08:00

I've heard much on how truth can possibly set you free. I never questioned this statement the moment I heard it first time. As a matter of fact, I totally believed it.

I have been holding back truths from the longest time. Keeping my mouth shut on certain issues which I consider less important than the present. And what do you know, Today, for the nth time, I got my heart to speak once more.

So tell me now, How can I possibly forget dealing with the past when in fact, the presence of unfinished business lingers?

How come I get all the sad parts?

2010-02-15T18:31:00.000-08:00

Yes, you're hell right. You're being too selfish...

If I can only stop the time, I will...

2010-02-14T10:10:00.000-08:00

As the day came to a close,

I thought I was in a dream.

A breathtaking dream.

I don't want to open my eyes now.

'Coz in opening my eyes, there's an end.

An end to an exceptional feel

Of happiness.

A hard kicking on the back was all it took...

2010-02-10T08:14:00.000-08:00

Things are totally different now. Slowly, reality is beginning to sink in. One day, I just woke up and everything's preposterous--my system, my mind, my time, my emotions, my body clock, my routine. Gaaaah. How could a day feel far worse than seeing myself walk into an open manhole?

A kick on the back was just what I badly needed. Thanks to a few concerned friends who deeply knew how it feels to be treated like crap, I've came to realize handpicked lessons in life that the corners of the classroom can't practically offer me.

As I speak, I'm getting worse.

Writing your sorrows can be possibly hard.

2010-02-08T09:13:00.000-08:00

Apparently, these passed few days, I can't seem to write the simplest words to describe my complex sentiments. I've been dying to write an entry, yet the moment my fingers get to feel the surface of each key, my mind suddenly runs poverish. The passed days have brought me much negativity. It was like when God showered Earth with all the good things, and there I was standing and staring blankly as each boon falls down the sky. In the end, I was empty handed; caught nothing but remnants of dust and dead air.

Writing all your sorrows shouldn't be as hard as writing your happiness. But at this point, neither can be considered easy. I don't want to end up sounding like I'll be attempting to jump off a cliff or something because of the overload of downbeat emotions. Better keep it as light as I can possibly could. So, to get things straight:

Glad is awfully sad. :(

Dealing with everyday has never been this bad.

2010-02-05T08:07:00.000-08:00

Each day is plain suicide.

And so, this marks the end.

2010-02-03T07:27:00.000-08:00

There's really so much about life that I find it hard to believe. Ironies which deeply challenge how far my comprehension can take. Reality checks on its constant necessity. As of this moment, I don't know exactly what to feel. My mind's one messed up crap as I write. I've never felt this bad in my entire lifetime. Guilt surfaced my consciousness, regret followed thereafter. The subtle words buoyed on my stream of understanding, refusing to sink in. Was that foreal? Did it really happen? Or was I in some sort of a bad dream? I cannot care less. Something new just started, and now, believe it or not, it suddenly came to a halt, it's over. Things breezed through me so fast that I haven't felt its existence. Like how a bullet swiftly cuts through thin air in split seconds. I am left suspended, on the brink, empty.

The strings ain't unlimited. It'll come to an end.

2010-02-01T06:05:00.001-08:00

It's time like this that I just want to zap my brain to stop thinking on so much things. I'm starting to grow tired of it. Nakakapagod na talaga. :( I don't know how long my patience and understanding will last, but as far as I'm concerned, it's slowly reaching its limit. Please don't drain me. Take it easy on pulling the strings, aight? I don't want to end up empty. :(

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~Okay. So much about the drama. XD

thanks to a good soul though,

my good sense finally came back. Lol. :))

Do whatever you want; it's your life in the first place.

2010-01-31T06:41:00.000-08:00

THIS should clearly describe my current state.

nakakainis na nakakaiyak. T.T

I can't name the wrong.

2010-01-29T13:36:00.000-08:00

Matters of reality have been filling up my mind these passed few days. I don't know exactly if things are on its line of track or are in need of dire fixing. I'm sure of one thing though: I am not happy. Feelings of uncertainty and doubt dress my good sense. And it pains me to know that these would eventually trigger an even worse sentiment. I don't want to end up to that, seriously. God knows how I am dreadfully sorry for messing up. Now, it must have been Karma getting back at me. I am afraid.

Distance NEVER is security.

2010-01-26T09:08:00.000-08:00

You are so near, yet so far. *sigh

It'll be just a sec.

2010-01-25T06:52:00.000-08:00

I badly want to get to know what's inside your head...

Will you ever let me?

There's no such thing as "gaining sleep"

2010-01-23T08:15:00.000-08:00

Photo by: Hanna Garcia

I had some serious sleeping today. 12 hours. Lol. xD

I shall mark my calendar 22.

2010-01-22T19:21:00.000-08:00

Fun coupled with spontaneity never seizes to leave me hanging by the moment and breathless.

The prelims week had me locked up in with a bunch of pending pages to be read, all-nighters and solitary confinements. And I'm glad, all those just came to an end. Alrighty! :) And what better way to conclude such a taxing week?--overnight booze! xD

At first, I wasn't really planning on coming. I haven't told my folks about this over night thing, so I've set my mind that they wouldn't allow me. Just to try my luck out, I did ask. And guess what? They permitted me to go. Right on! :D

Meme, Hannee, Jessee and I spent the rest of the afternoon waiting for Jem's return. She had to grab a few things back home for the overnight. I got a bit dismayed though when Ruthee and Rejie weren't able to come due to some unexpected circumstances. In the end, only the 6 of us successfully pushed through with the sleepover--Jeca, Hanna, Jem, Meme, Marko and I.

Some friends invited us over at Balay for a few shots. It was fun seeing my friends loosen things up a bit after days of serious studying. :)) Leaving the place, after effects of alcohol found its way through our systems. Personally, I started being a loud mouth. Lol. xD

The stench of smoke fastened itself to our uniforms and hair unbearably that we had to roll the windows down. With Marko's hasty driving, it wasn't a bad idea really especially when the cool breeze of the Thursday night touched my skin. It helped the kick lower down a bit, surprisingly. :)

Playing Band hero was the first thing we did upon entering Meme's haven. After a few hits from the drums and some rocking strums from the guitar, mixing drinks was my next target. (At this point, Kuya Paul was already present. Driving all the way from QC. An addition to the team :D) Meme and I grabbed everything we can from the kitchen--tequila, the bar, iced tea powder, pitcher, shot glass, plastic cups, ice and some RC cola. With a little trial and error, we did end up concocting a very unusual mix we called 3 in 1--Iced tea and Cola with a mix of Tequila! Lol. :)) Not bad for first timers. Haha!

As the night grew deeper and the team started getting all drunk, we played truth or dare. Oh boy, I seriously wanted to backed out from this one. Me and my big mouth! I shouldn't have proposed playing this in the first place. Revelations and secrets divulged. Questions raised were tight! And so were the dares. I choose not to elaborate on those though. Lol.

Paul had to leave at around 2-ish. And so the session had to end since Paul was leaving, Meme, Jessee and Hannee were all red and drunk and Jemee was sleepy. They each found a place to rest their heads and finally went to a slumber. Marko on the other hand, had to leave by 6am. Sleeping wasn't his option. Or else, he wouldn't be able to get up and leave exactly by 6. We then talked the night out.

Friday was a lethargic day. For starters, I got to buy only an hour of sleep. The breakfast was quite long. 2 hours to be exact. Shrimps, the night's happenings and BF secrets pretty much dominated the conversation. It was funny how each one had a side of the story to share boldly, without hesitating. I guess 'twas the hangover's fault. Lol. :))

For lunch, we had pizza and spicy wings! Yum yum! Plus, we did had a chance to make a really cool song. :)

Again, for the nth time:

Why plan when spontaneity can totally fix it? xD

Photo credits: Hanna Garcia

~the start of something new. :)~

Keeps me sane.

2010-01-19T03:32:00.000-08:00

Okay. Is it just me or am I really overeating? Zikes. >.<

The prelims week keeps me busy. And.... HUNGRY! Lol. :))

Some way to displace racing thoughts, eh? xD

I read to get things off the mind.

2010-01-17T15:08:00.000-08:00

The tons of pages waiting for me to read took my mind off other matters faintly. Focusing on what I should be doing was a huge struggle, bad to the bone. As my eyes raced along technical texts, pictures of former days resound on my head. I'd give it a little shake, hoping to clear away the images. I'd fail.

Talking resolves too much thinking.

2010-01-15T08:29:00.000-08:00

Thoughts and emotions long over due have finally made its way out of the shell.

I'd be happy to think that maybe I was...

2010-01-14T17:34:00.000-08:00

Unsolicited questions waiting for me to be answered constantly make my chest thud vigorously like it'll soon break my rib cages. Whether it be some trivial issues or just some random thoughts, I see myself struggling to find those drowned-inside-my-runoff-thoughts type of answers. To be outright honest, I can hardly think of clear-cut ways to arrive with a safe one.

Tonight, my kind fate ushered me to a serious confrontation. I literally beaded with sweat despite the cool and breezy night. My thoughts suddenly ran impoverish. At that moment, I wanted to just run away. I wanted my mind to shut down. I wanted my senses to go numb. But that didn't happen. The only words that unknowingly came out were:

"Hindi ko rin alam. I don't know how to explain things. Magulo."

I felt bad. For some reason, the feeling of thirst for answers wasn't something you'd be happy to feel. And, I knew that. I knew the person who asked me felt that way. I knew I failed to compensate the emptiness and the hanging sense.

I was dreadfully sorry.

Can't miss you enough.

2010-01-13T09:45:00.001-08:00

Photo courtesy of Ms. Jessica Barnido

"The worst kind of missing someone is when the person you are missing sits right next to you."

*Hey, I miss you! Just so you know...

In realism, there's a dream.

2010-01-12T15:50:00.000-08:00

I'd like to honestly think that I'm just in a sort of a dream.

Everything seems vague, hazed and uncertain.

Visions of people abruptly emerge inside my head so fast that I can only catch a glimpse of a familiar face.

The rest was just a milieu.

T'was like I am the photographer shooting a scene with that known face as my focus.

The familiar face grew clearer.

Defining its features and slowly making known itself to me.

Seeing it,

I smiled.

Blank.

2010-01-11T08:35:00.000-08:00

"I can't go back to yesterday, because I was a different person then." -Lewis Carroll

*This reminded me of something worth blogging. BUT! I am incapable now. So, I guess some other day then? xD

The first break of light.

2010-01-09T07:37:00.000-08:00

The sun's rays glistened as it inched slowly on the horizon, piercing through my tinted car windows. Its touch crafted a tingling soft, warm feel against my weary, cold face. My eyes opened and woke up, unaware of the hour. Oh! What a sight, the beauty of nature saying hi!

"Why, hello there!" I whispered.

"Can I take a picture of you?" :)

TGIF.

2010-01-08T07:36:00.000-08:00

Thank God it's Friday!!

Whew. So much about having a tight week. I've been stressing hardcore especially on that effin' case report! Sheez. Really, really, REALLY taxing! But hey, I'm glad that was over! Feels like I've been freed from a huge burden on my back (whether taken literally or not. It's the same bananas. Haha. xD) The rest of the night was spent with a few BF's. Some already left. I stayed for some unknown reason desperately seeking maybe to shake things off a bit after much intellectual stimulation. Lol. Decision? Tambay! :D Good thing about staying was that Marko treated us Pizza! Alright! :D Thanks, Marko! :) that was a good call. We're really starving. Haha!

*I just had to say I miss my chance to see Ne-yo today. :( Darn sched! >.<

Precipitate.

2010-01-06T10:26:00.000-08:00

I cannot miss the chance to blog what happened to me today.

It was during our Counseling class. I felt really stupid and useless. (Pardon me for the choice of words, but those are the next best thing to describe the intensity of the emotions I seriously felt.) My mind was drifting somewhere else. I can't get myself to focus on what was happening around me, especially the moment the professor started throwing series of brain-twisting questions about our report. It pretty much reminded me on how bullets fire out of the mouth of a machine gun--very daunting! Worse part was, I wasn't able to help out my groupmates in answering those hard to digest questions. What a junkie! :(

Alright. Glad I was able to take that out. *sigh I better start getting things straight or It'll totally suck to be like this for the rest of the year! Nooooo! >.<

Can't keep this out of my coconuts.

2010-01-06T09:33:00.000-08:00

Elliot Yamin's song really got me. Major LSS! It has been weeks since I first heard this song yet it has no intentions of leaving my head. It's playing on repeat and I'm not getting tired of it. I wonder why? xD

How do I get close

When he looks like an angel

A moment of his time seems impossible to me

It's hard to find the words

To get to know this stranger

I'm scared of what he'll say

If what I say sounds incomplete

And it feels like, we belong together

Can someone tell me where do I start?

'Cause I can't keep on,

Feeling the way I do

I can't keep on,

Hiding my heart from you

I gotta say something before

Someone else comes through

I can't keep on

Loving you, from a distance

He's always on my mind

There's no room left for thinking

I'm tired of waiting, slowly fading

It needs to happen now (right now)

'Cause I'm running out of time

And I feel the ship is sinking

The doors are closing

I am frozen

I need him around

And it feels like, we belong together

Can someone tell me where do I start?

Note: I kinda edited the pronouns just to suit my persona. Lol. xD

Some song huh? :P

Some night.

2010-01-04T08:23:00.000-08:00

It's a bit distressing at times to think of what you will say to someone especially if some tongue-tied incident happened between the both of you. I can't get the exact reason behind it, but one thing's for sure, the less things you do, the less mistakes you get. I wonder if minimizing actions would really help me out. *sigh

I got another dose of love 101 tonight. Words straight from a guy's own experience. Those things never fail to get me. Though I've constantly evaded listening to these shiznit, I can't help but to still pay attention. What actually sucks was the part where I heard him ranting on some reasons why he turns out the way he is because of some freakin' love blah. And I was just sitting there, digesting the sentiments and can barely do anything. Worse, as he goes on with the mishaps love brought him, images of people came crashing my mind. NOT a good sign.

I've been thinking too much things lately, and I guess this night paved way for me to think on those things deeper. Which reminds me:

"Hey, Glad! You still have a Case report to write plus Case studies to do. So get your ass back to work and stop thinking on less sensible matters!"

-Yes, sir! xD

-end-

Cut it short.

2010-01-02T23:09:00.000-08:00

Flippin' and clicking profiles in Facebook lately consumes most of my surfing time. I find time staring at other people's photos, stat messages, albums, links, name it! I'll check it out. Hey, Is it that bad? I guess social networking sites were made for that purpose anyway. Lol. :))

To be completely honest, when I see girls sporting short hair, I envy 'em. Just my luck that I was born with an almost square shaped face. So, to get things straight, I CANNOT cut my hair short. I'll probably look like an inflated balloon head. >.<

On the second thought, maybe I should! For a change. I'll mark that as one of my New year's resolution, aside from working on my abs for that matter. Hahahaha.

Spend it right.

2010-01-01T09:06:00.000-08:00

As 2009 bids farewell, I get to savor its last few hours with my family. Like any other New year's eve, we enjoyed the fireworks, ate together and took some pictures. Nothing unusual except for the part where mom and Lil sis almost got hit by a malfunctioning star maker. Both were awe-stricken. They realized later on that they were just inches away in spending the New Year in the hospital. Good thing that didn't happen.

The morning had remnants of last night's celebration. Smug. Cluttered streets. Debris.

I surprisingly woke up earlier than usual. Which reminds me that just the other day, my cousins told me they will be coming over for some booze. Today's the day. Great!I shall start the year with intoxication! Spare me! T.T

Drunkards running wild.

2009-12-29T23:56:00.000-08:00

Each day has its mysteries to tell, secrets to divulge, revelations to expose. Such mysteries keep me drawn to look forward to what is in stored for tomorrow.

Just some random thoughts. I have no idea why the heck those words blurted out of my brain. Maybe because of what happened yesterday. Quite unthinkable! My parents allowed me to spend the night at my friend's place without much interrogation. Years back, over nights were a major No, no! Will you look at that! Time flies real fast. I'm lagging behind.

Meme's party definitely was something. Free flowing drinks, lip smacking menu, rockin' crowd what more can you ask? Getting drunk wasn't in my priority list. Otherwise stated for some. Seeing people get all drunk and ecstatic was never been this fun! I know it sounds a bit off the record, but hey, really. Drunk people are fun to watch--sometimes. Lol. :)) Spontaneity struck me once more. I feel the hype! xD

Spontaneity at work.

2009-12-27T19:31:00.000-08:00

I've been blogging numerous entries how spontaneity results to unexpected outbursts of fun and excitement. And, I'll never get tired of it. One more electrifying (if that's how I can fairly compare it to. xD) event newly adds up to my "spontaneity memorabilia". :)

Today is the 27th. My dad's birthday. Mom said that some relatives will be coming over to challenge my dad's singing ability. Dad wasn't home when I woke up this morning. His schedule was fully booked and so I didn't have the chance to ask permission that I was planning to go South for a baptismal. To make up for that, I wrote him a letter. The next occurrences were beyond imaginable. Let the pictures do the talking: xD

I brought home a little something for my dad. The moment I reached our place, Mom was smiling, asking what took me so long and that dad's waiting for me. Dad welcomed me with a tight hug as I held out the gift I bought for him. I joined the rest of my relatives, ate the rest of the food and sang a series of songs. The night was coming to a close. My relatives soon left and waved good bye.

The day was filled with bearably long and tiring memories. But the happy ones outshine the rest. :)

Why is there a need to plan if spontaneity can totally fix it? xD

Resolution

2009-12-22T23:17:00.000-08:00

The nights seem to grow longer and longer by the minute. Nuisance thoughts cloak my awareness. I cannot draw the line between dreams and reality. All I know for sure is that, the moment I shut my eyes to sleep, train of thoughts come rushing in and lasts until I get my eyes to open again the next morning. By all means, this is how I get worried on unsettled things.

And today, such anxiousness came to a halt.

Vividness colors vagueness.

"Resolve to perform what you ought; perform without fail what you resolve".

--Stonewall Jackson

Things you get from being intoxicated.

2009-12-19T22:10:00.000-08:00

The thereafter episodes of the Paskuhan was undeniably inconceivable. Things I never thought even in my dreams just came in fluttering, leaving me staggered the moment my consciousness slowly seeps back. I was dreadfully sorry. For being such a jerk, for being too insensitive, for being too bold. I should've thought of the current situation. I should've thought of its consequences. I should've thought of the people involved. Yet, these "should have's" are now pointless. It's part of history.

At times like this, I can't help but think that maybe it's better to keep things to yourself. Venting out your sentiments to others would just make the situation even more complicated as it already is. Plus the subjective fact that in every story, the listener has his/her own judgment. Frankly, I am afraid of that. I don'know how people would react when they get a hold of my current state. It plainly sucks to keep things from others especially to the ones whom I already entrusted my everything. It melts my heart by just thinking of it. Now, there's just me, people involved and the problem, period. The rest I leave to time.

Unraveling bliss.

2009-12-18T21:29:00.000-08:00

The sun wasn't gleaming brightly like any other days, temperature's lower than usual. The skies adorned white clouds, as the sun sporadically pierces through the cottony clouds. The voice of my brother exclaiming for me to get up thundered inside my head: "Ateeee, gising ka na! 8:30 na! Ligo ka na!". The words sank slowly as I turned to the other side of the bed: "Okay. 8:30 na... Waaaaah. 8:30 na?"

Hurriedly, I got to my feet, went straight to the bathroom, brushed my teeth, took a bath, put on my house clothes, dried and fixed my hair, picked my Christmas party clothes, wore it, then powdered my face in a span of 45 minutes. My stuff is everywhere! Papers lying on the floor, bags opened, sheets undone. The previous night was quite taxing. I had to edit our paper for Test Con, prepare my things for the over night at Ruthee's crib not to mention, get the gifts ready for our block' s Christmas party. Whew, a lot of things going on there! And really, it wasn't fun seeing myself run from one spot of the house to another. >.<

On our way to school, another hard luck struck my already unlucky day: TRAFFIC JAM!

Damn, Nice timing. It's already 11:30. Party's at 11. And still where am I? In the streets of Mandaluyong for crying out loud. A text message got me even more panicky: "Psy dep na ko glad". Shoot! I have our group's output and I totally forgot that the deadline's at 12nn SHARP! Good thing, I was already in España. The same exact moment my feet got on the grounds of UST, I made my way to the 3rd floor main building. Too worried that I might not get to my destination on time, and with much desperation, I used the elevator. As I opened the Psychology Department door, shrills welcomed me. Marko and Ruthee were waiting with the envelopes still at hand. Yay! I made it on time. Thank God! :)

At this point, the heat was scorching. My forehead beaded with sweat. Walking to Jollibee Asturias wasn't easy taking into consideration how much my hands were loaded with paper bags, 3 bags for the record and my knapsack stuffed with clothes. >.< Finally, we arrived at the venue. My block mates were eating their hearts out digging into hefty servings of spaghetti, chicken and fries. Plus a jolly sundae for dessert! Yum! :)

The party went well. The games definitely got the energy all pumped up and made everyone eagerly ready for the impending exchange of gifts. People seriously went ecstatic the moment Sugar announced the next game: Newspaper dance. If I remember it right, 3 pairs took part of it. Kayle/Pj, Meme/Rossann and Marko/Nokie. Screams rumbled the entire vicinity, cheering for their own bets. The Kayle/Pj tandem was certainly a hit. :)) As predicted, Marko and Nokie bagged the prize. But what really got me laughing so hard was what Marko told us after. It'll be far off safe to just keep it as a secret. :)

The most awaited part of the program finally came. Gifts were given to their respective receivers, smiles laced the pretty faces, thank you's uttered with glee. Digging deeper, it was at this peak that the true essence of Christmas unveiled its glorious mystery: SHARING. :)

Happy Christmas, Everyone! :)

Whoever said you can't change overnight?

2009-12-09T21:16:00.000-08:00

I totally lost it.

Today, I was a total stranger: withdrawn, silent, speechless. I didn't mind talking to no one. The aura was down beat, alarming, disturbing. I even got scared myself. Gloomy vibes in all places, with my name written on every sensation. I didn't want to speak to anyone, definitely not an option. Dealing with this outrageous emotion never was an easy task. I need to work up a sweat to resolve such idiosyncrasy. I can't let people know it. As hard as it might sound, letting people know my sentiments would even make things worse. Or maybe I'm just if truth be told, scared of what other people might think of me. The act of sharing is there, only held back. People are involved, yes, and I cannot risk the chance to get them even more involved in this. I don't want them to feel what I feel. The "suckiness" feel, the feeling of being lost in yourself, precipitated by that very influential environment. I put a facade, a bitter mask. I hold back tears behind. Those eyes lagged tears waiting a hint of an emotional eruption to trigger its freedom. There's no one to run to now.

Only me and my shattered self.

Burst the bubble.

2009-12-08T21:06:00.000-08:00

Was yesterday real? Have I really done it? Great. so much about restriction. I never imagined, not even thought of that one day, I'll be fearless enough to face my emotions, head on. A minute, I see boldness, the next thing I know, I'm all soundless, shocked. Some persona aroused from what I originally call myself.

Me and my wounded ego.

Can I just disappear now?

Closed.

2009-12-07T19:40:00.000-08:00

This morning wasn't something to look forward to. Exhaustion dominates my system from yesterday's proctoring. Gosh! Was I in dire need of rest. My voice betrayed me. I can't speak. My throat was prickling like hell. That in mind, it further aggravated my idea of just staying at home and ditch school. Hard headed as I am, I still went to school. Lip syncing was my means of communication. Occasionally, If I get lucky, a man's voice blurts out.

OD typically isn't a grand subject. But today, the flow deviated from its usual. An Ice breaker game topped it all of. The succeeding subjects got me slumped deeper to my seat. Time seems to drizzle leisurely. A minute seems to last for hours.

7:00pm finally donned its existence. Dismissal time.

As I walk past the empty rooms of the 3rd floor with the dimly lighted corridors struggling to eat the darkness, a sudden thought thumped my deeper sense. Go shopping for my brother's birthday gift!

I beg to conclude this night with that.

AssUMe.

2009-12-04T07:01:00.000-08:00

Photo credits: Jessica Barnido

Sometimes it really takes great amount of strength to face the draw backs of reality. You can't spend the rest of your life thinking of the ideal and suppress the real. Never is it healthy to assume. Like how my professor in Educ Psych told us way back in 2nd year: "To assume is to make an ASS between U an ME". How can I object to that? I was never a fan of it to begin with. It takes the shit out of me. It's NOT healthy to assume, again, IT IS NOT HEALTHY, especially if you're dead unsure of the things happening around you, and so is being too unfeeling of the situation. To assume is to set standards. The standards that one day, you'll be able to have a grasp of it. But when failure taints the picture, it takes a great toll on you. The consequences might be even more detrimental, not only to yourself, but also to the person involved. So what to do when you're feeling that assuming slowly devours your psyche? Think of some other things. It's the easiest quick fix. When you got all things straightened up, then, confront the situation. Let situations heal vague dimensions. Then, the rest would follow. Hopefully..

Winner.

2009-10-02T22:58:00.000-07:00

There's no one, not even the typhoon Pepeng, who can stop Kim Bum come to the Philippines.

Kim Bum, Here I come! :)

Is there any way to get out of this mess?

2009-09-22T20:07:00.000-07:00

This is when I get a glimpse of the odd and unfounded feeling I'm now thinking madly about. I don't know if it'll help me or condemn me, who knows? I shouldn't have mulled over it in the first place. And yet, the more I try to get rid of that strange feel, the more it recognizes its existence. Some inexplicable thing pierces my insides, my heart in particular. The thing is, I totally can't think of a sane act to compensate for whatever upshot it'll bring to me. You end the old, start anew. How bad is that? You're trying your hardest to get a life, straighten up the crooked and rocky path, paint thoroughfare lines, build road signs and start navigating towards that less traveled path. There's no easy way out of this situation. At this point, there's no turning back. I deciphered the feeling, and now, at least for now, let time better define it.

The Host.

2009-09-21T08:19:00.000-07:00

Officially, I started reading this. :)

I heard it was tight!

Late.

2009-09-19T09:34:00.000-07:00

Smart Bro day with Bonch and Ruthee.

As usual, I came late.

Guilt enveloped my consciousness.

To make up for that.....

Dili bars were served!

Too bad Raf had to go so soon.

I'll definitely make it up. :)

Then....

We saw Mr. Giant Ha

vs!

Weeee!

Photo Op with the star! :)

Travel.

2009-09-17T07:29:00.000-07:00

Spontaneity never seizes to amaze me. Given the fact that almost every time it drops an invitation, generous amount of happiness comes loose. The weeks, as of the moment, brought hefty luggages. Those offering mountain piles of experimental reports to write, deadlines to meet, journal articles to research on and let's not forget the sleepless nights. You'd be awfully thankful to be grouped with a bunch of "why-not-do-it-now" type of peers who would readily spend time finishing their schoolwork on their spare time. Goodness! I wish I'm one of 'em. :))

It wasn't the case for Ruthee's group. Since Hanna, Jeca and I wanted to do a good deed for the day, We helped them out into polishing and finishing what's left with their work. The library was the place to be. But not for long! 'Ze Library closes at around 8pm. 8pm strikes! We had to vacate the premises and settle for some place where lights are on 24/7. Where else? BK! :)

Upon arrival, electrical outlets were all taken! Just our luck, The laptops are hinting dead. Good thing some good citizen lent his space for us to use even just for awhile. My idea of going is out of the picture not until out watches ticked to 12mn.

As I arrived home, All I wanted to do was go to bed. I was too weary. Luckily, my parents were sleeping soundly. Halleluia! School's off tomorrow anyway. And in what better way to spend it? :))

I just need to say how it feels a bit refreshing working at BK's free wifi zone. (That is if you'll buy something. Lol. )

Soul.

2009-09-15T08:31:00.000-07:00

Soulmates.

Such an eccentric word to begin with.But does it really exist?

I never really believed in that word of mouth sort of thing. That you have a twin soul in your lifetime..

Not until now. :)

Can you believe you guys breathe the same air, stand at the same ground and see the same world. How cool is that? :)

You started as strangers, like most people would. You didn't even know such person ever existed. Then college began. You met all sorts of people. And on that unchanged crowd, your better half awaits.

We only get a shot in life. So why waste it?

The plan.

2009-09-13T08:27:00.000-07:00

What's the easiest way to breeze through your requirements just to pass your subjects?

Answer: PROCRASTINATION! :))

It's not what you do, it's how you do it. :P Right, Jeca? :))

Frozen

2009-09-12T08:24:00.000-07:00

You really can't get everything you want.

Can I just be where you are?

Frayed.

2009-09-11T08:07:00.000-07:00

I just get the feeling of being torn. Dissonance. You know how things get all mixed up down within you. You feel happy now, a second later, you're the worst person you can ever be. Again, I'm at that stage. Staggered all over the place, waxing and waning like how the moon changes it's phase. I wanted to feel happy, being with the person whom you've always wanted, yet, not a single hint knocks at your door. It just feels weird. I gave every chance the benefit of the doubt thinking it was the end of the line, now, I don't know. Am I really running towards what I thought was the end? Or was I just too engaged at thinking so much that I realized I was just running at that same God-forsaken space all along?

Birthday!

2009-09-10T10:15:00.000-07:00

Jeca and Pauline's birthday treat!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SOULMATE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, PAULINE!

Another year older, and hoping it'll be another year wiser.

Tokyo Tokyo (San Lazaro)

Hand made cakes c/o Goldilocks! :)

I can't get the right words to describe the fun I personally felt. :)

Kuya Paul, missing in action :(

2009-09-08T10:13:00.000-07:00

...anticipation

Amendment

2009-09-04T22:47:00.000-07:00

Why didn't I notice much earlier?

How I'm gaining consequently losing.

Mind's all hazy,

heart's going crazy

Unforeseen

Sudden

Abrupt

unexpected

Old flame's slowly withdrawing

Gone to wrack and ruin

Is this what I get

from hanging around too much?

*I don't want this to go to waste.

BK.

2009-09-03T00:25:00.000-07:00

Welcome Rotonda

'til 11:30pm

Hannee, Jessee, Ruthee, Rejie, Paul and Grace

Attempted to finish their experimental report

Not successful. >.<

FUN though. :)

Photo-op

2009-08-29T00:20:00.000-07:00

Credits: Great Image

Happy Birthday, Raf!

2009-08-27T00:06:00.000-07:00

BONCH, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :)

Lunch at Jollibee Asturias.

Video capturing how a rare specie eats in its natural habitat. Lol.

AND..

I got an answer! Alright! :)

Happy Birthday, Vida!

2009-08-26T00:04:00.000-07:00

REGINA VIDA QUIAMBAO's BIRTHDAY!!

Happy Birthday, Rej!

BF at the Pit

Rej cried. Aww..

Broke.

2009-08-25T00:02:00.000-07:00

PROMISE BROKEN.

T.T

Twins!

2009-08-23T23:55:00.000-07:00

First proctoring day!

Call time at 6am.

Went to school with Tricia.

Funny moment: The moment I was approaching Tricia's car, I saw this weird expression on her face. I was also weirded out by that. As I sat beside her, something really freaky made our mouth jolted open with laughter; we were wearing the same style of dress, only of different colors! Lol.

Tiring day, but the experience wasn't bad. Not at all! :)

Maybe I should join the next proctoring task :)

Favors.

2009-08-20T23:54:00.000-07:00

I always have trouble asking favors from anyone...

Is it THAT bad? >.<

Scaredy cat, Glad.

2009-08-19T23:40:00.000-07:00

Would anyone of you guys even attempt to scream your lungs out just seeing inanimate objects zoomed in by the camera during an ultimately scary and hair-raising suspense movie?

Well, I did! Lol. Thanks to HIDE AND SEEK!

I was totally freaked out! I never really liked scary or even suspense movies eversince I've started breathing in this world. >.<>.<

In the end, when I got home from school, I totally lost my sanity so to speak. Lol. It got even to the point of me getting all panicky whenever I am to shove myself into pitch black darkness. Hahaha!

Funny how scary movies turn me into a scaredy cat in an instant. >.<

Cap-Red

2009-08-14T23:32:00.000-07:00

Finally, prelims end today! Hoooray!! :)

Capitol Medical Center

for Wil, Kaye, Chelsea, Jeca and I. Interview for our CIP project. Amazing! Industrial Psychology isn't that bad. :)

Redbox/Timezone

With BF plus Kaye and Wil. Oh yeah!

A dose of fun for the hardworking students! How cool is that? :)

Happy Birthday, Ivan!

2009-08-12T23:28:00.000-07:00

Worked up another surprise for Mr. Ivan Maxlo Te!

Botannical garden

Kink Cakes

Gifts

Big Card

He was totally surprised! :) Speeched his way out. Lol.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BRO!! :)

2009-08-10T23:25:00.000-07:00

"Every man's life is a fairy tale written by God's fingers."

-Hans Christian Andersen

2009-08-06T23:23:00.000-07:00

A poetic day at WENDY'S.. :)

Yellow

2009-08-04T23:18:00.000-07:00

YELLOW DAY!!

Went to school wearing yellow!

And had my CIP reporting.

Tubular! :))

Bleed.

2009-08-03T23:12:00.000-07:00

CURSE EXPERIMENTAL LEC QUIZ!!!

It squeezed out the brains out of me >.<

Proctoring Job.

2009-08-01T23:09:00.000-07:00

PROCTORING ORIENTATION! :)

Everyone was in their smart casual outfit! Kewl! :))

(TYK, Room 402)

Happy BIrthday, Wilhelm!

2009-07-30T23:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

WILHELMINO SY-ALVARADO, JR.!

Mission not yet accomplished though. It was just right on the nick of time that I've finished the big card for him. Thanks to Ivan Te's constant distraction abilities! It spared me from being caught in the act. Lol.

We surprised him at Quadri with a few of his HS friends. Touched as he'll always be. Haha. :)

It is just plain cool having to get someone surprised :)

-Thanks, Wil! :D

Gift searching.

2009-07-29T22:41:00.000-07:00

Psycho Diag class ended earlier than its usual. On this day, I haven't planned on one thing to give Wil on his birthday. And guess what, tomorrow's the big day! And here I am sitting on my arm rest, at room 130, staring at the gibberish writings on the white board, mind fluttering and trying real hard to think of what to give.

And sooooo.. After almost an hour of contemplating and asking Jessee for help, finally, I got to get my feet moving. I went to Mega. Gift searching. Entering each and every store, hoping to find something to satisfy my overwhelming need to obtain a present. Thank God, I did find one after hours of walking from Building A to Building B and vice versa. >.<

Realization: Never intend to go to your shopping destination without an idea of where to buy and what you are going to buy. Lol.

Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts.

2009-07-13T02:19:00.000-07:00

Countless thoughts are overpowering my sanity.

Clouded.

These got me all occupied, eventful, busy.

*sigh*

When will all these thinking ever stop? >.<

(Bonding with my soul mate and Ten! :D; good companies for a not-so-good day.)

Heed of care

2009-07-11T01:42:00.000-07:00

"The things you see with your eyes are not always real. Some things are only visible with faith."

~I may see that you are awfully burdened of what is happening now and

I cannot care less,

but I believe that things would not end up this way if

you only care more.

"Okay, Gladys!"

2009-07-09T06:31:00.000-07:00

Like most thursdays, my day started quite earlier than my usual. I need to steel myself for our six-hours straight class 'til the afternoon. Just the mere fact that I must get up way too early in the morning and prepare for class with no breaks makes me think unlikely of how I am to survive and brush off my first sem in Junior year.

Psychodiagnostic Lab was a literal "bolt from the blue!" Pop quiz! Gosh, and I was confident that my only concern for today was King Budji's heart-pumping

"pass-the-eraser" recitation in Abnormal Psychology. Good thing I sort of read Sir Marc's handouts in Psychodiagnostic Lec yesterday in the thought

that he'll probably grant us our long-awaited first quiz. Lol.The second period was not much of an excitement. Just a few reporting, reading journal articles and listening to sister would do the trick, not to mention jotting down summarized notes. Next course was a total bummer. No professor for Lit class Haha. And so, An hour and a half was added to our usual 3 hours break. Beat that. :))

We grabbed something to eat during the break and went

straight to the library to study right after. Rej and Jem weren't in the good mood though and it got us all worried. As the clock strikes 4, we went back to o

ur classroom and waited for the prof. The aura wasn't that fluttering. Each of my blockmates was very anxious to the bone, being afraid to be the "chosen one" wherein he/she has to face Sir B's chain of questions. The worry isn't signifiacnt though 'coz there was no recitation! Hoooray! :)) BUT that is not the end of it...

Sir B: In what stage can you find the Oedipal conflict?

3E: *in silence--some murmuring Phallic stage*

Sir B: Okay, Gladys! Yes, Gladys!

Glad: *Busily jotting down notes shocked to be called* Sir?

Sir B: In what stage can you find the Oedipal conflict?

Glad: Uhm.. *Smiles, looks at Kayle then Jeca*

Jeca:*Whispering* Pre-genital stage!

Glad: *Whispers* huh? Genital stage?

Jeca: *Still whispering* No, Pre-genital, Phallic stage.

Sir B: Okay Gladys, what's the answer? Wag ka na ma

hiya! Ano yung sagot? Sabihin mo na.

Glad: Hmm.. *Softly and unsure* Pre-genital stage?

Sir B: Yes, where in particular? Oral, Anal or Phallic?

Glad: Phallic, sir..

Sir B: Okay, Phallic stage! *And continues his lecture from then on*

Holy molly! I was called upon on the verge of my note-taking! What a lucky girl! I was caught off-guard and my mind was like poof! Dead air, no br

ain. Haha. Good thing, Jeca whispered to me the answer. JECA saved my life! Lol. :)) Heaven-sent! Thanks, Jessee! :P

The day didn't end after our Ab Psy class. BF went to Big Ben for a photo-op! Striking our poses, projecting our serious and F-Faces on the cam. FUN!

Another unpredictable and muddled-up feelings transpired today. But, like the usual, exhausting yet F-U-N! :)

BF <3

Treasured.

2009-07-08T09:57:00.000-07:00

A moment like this makes time too short, way too short.

~picnic day with BF <3

(Missing: Rej--took this pic, Paola and Sugar--buying.)

Shut it.

2009-07-07T09:58:00.000-07:00

-I never thought how a simple game of "Pinoy Henyo" can get the bad mouth out of my system. >.<>

-Another of Sir B's quotable quotes: : "If you want to be happy, eat Banana!" :))

Z-E-R-O

2009-07-06T09:59:00.000-07:00

Experiment in Psy on Memory and Retention. Sucked. Haha.

Stress: I AM NOT AFRAID OF YOU! :P

2009-07-05T05:37:00.000-07:00

A checklist of what I've accomplished for today:

-finished abstract for expe lab report

-finished my CIP article 1

-updated my blog partially

Yay! So proud of myself :) Stress! I'm not afraid of you!! Bring it on! Lol. :))

Lost soul.

2009-06-30T10:00:00.000-07:00

Another train of thoughts entangled my already confused mind.

Am I to push through sending myself to the burden of studying 'til my brains ooze out and my nose bleed so bad?

Or get my myself to enjoy while working at the same time fulfill my new found dream of travelling at my own expense?

Or send myself to venture on the industrial side of Psychology, get into a good company and work, work, work?

CONFUSION! >.<

My first JUNIOR year

2009-06-16T05:23:00.000-07:00

Alright! So officially, I'm a junior now. Yay! :)

Start of classes.

Was late.

Star!

What a way to start the sem.

Opening of classes, moved.

2009-06-09T05:28:00.000-07:00

Classes officialyl should start today. But due to the Influenza A(H1N1) outbreak in Metro Manila, University of Santo Tomas moved the opening of classes to June 15.

*For College of Science, it will be on June 16, 2009

I was pretty much excited to go to class today. Guess my excitement should wait a little longer..

I miss P5! Especially BF! :)

Ramp.

2009-06-06T22:18:00.000-07:00

Today, I've been inspired. :)

Expression at low level

2009-05-25T07:48:00.000-07:00

I haven't been blooging much this summer. A couple of things have kept me all busy. And, I only got few words in my head to the point of not even assembling logical and rational phrases to satisfy my need for self-expression.

Wilted.

Dry.

Dessicated.

Parched.

Are the only words I can think of at the moment.

Flow of watering utterance is a need now, not a want...

Out

2009-05-15T07:44:00.000-07:00

A sudden plan crashed my mom's head today. And I'm on it! Haha. I'll be gone for a while :)

Called for

2009-05-12T05:41:00.000-07:00

"We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone."

-Orson Welles

Isolation. Slowly, I think I've kinda got used to its atmosphere. Knowing there are people who enfolds you, still, deep down inside, you feel the necessity for seclusion...

Masterpiece

2009-05-09T23:29:00.000-07:00

Wandering with no particular destination, a young girl walked incessantly with sorrow spelled all over her face , unable to hear the noise of the twaddling crowd and the cars passing by . Feeling down-hearted, she sat down along the side of the street. Right at that solitary moment, a young man staring out of his car's window, sees the girl just across the road weeping, speculating on what could have happened. Deliberating on whether to attend to her or not, the boy finally spoke.

"Stop the car!" he exclaimed, unceasingly looking back at the pavement where he last saw the girl following her through his line of vision. The car came to a halt. The young man, hesitantly went down and walked towards the unspeakably sad young woman.

"Aren't you past the age of crying in th middle of the street?" the man instigated as the young lady slowly lifted her head to see who just spoke. "Girls, you know, sometimes think it's pretty to cry but actually it's not true."

Without warning, the young woman started to sob piercingly. "Miss?" the guy asked questionably unable to crack what is it that he had said that made things worse. The girl continued to cry blatantly. "Miss?" And still, tears constantly fell down her cheeks. Passers-by even thought that they were couples on the verge of breaking up. The man, sensitive enough to feel what things go inside the head of the passers-by carefully and shyly called out, "It wasn't me!, It wasn't me!"

Not being able to sense what's happening around her, focusing entirely on what has been bothering her, the lady continued to cry loudly as the guy whispered "Miss! Please! Miss!"

----

While the young man served tea to his guest, the young woman was astonished by the craftiness and workmanship of the teacup that was standing in front her. Smiling at the girl's innocent examination of the cup, the man grab the cup and triggered, "This thing, it looks pretty weak right?" Unable to know what to say, the girl stared blankly as the man instantaneously dropped the clay cup.

"It's stronger than it looks. Do you know how long it took for that cup to be like that?" Not knowing the answer to the question, the girl burried herself to a more silenced aura. "Sorted, stepped on, cut and then burned at 1300 degrees, that's not yet the end. If after all of that, it's still not right, then it has to be thrown out like this." The young man stood up, grabbed the hammer, wrapped the cup with a cloth and hammered the cup into pieces. Still incapable of knowing where the man is getting at, the young woman kept her peace.

"To become strong, this is what you have to go through. Just like what you went through today." Surprisingly, the woman flashed a timid smile and said, "I think I understand what you're saying. Thank you"

**End**

Awe

2009-05-04T22:46:00.000-07:00

Series of superfluous dealings made me want to just disappear in thin air, like how a bubble blissfully hovers in the course of the wind and drifts with it. And the next second, the bubble looses its life, weary, somnolent and bursts majestically, unwarned. How should life work that way? I wonder. What if everyone thinks of the same way, bleak, desperate and unpromising whenever impasses brush away the roots of their feet--barely seizing? What would be left of mankind?

Then and there, I still marvel.

---

I couldn't get myself straightened up, nor clear the mangled thoughts my psyche's inhabiting. Slowly, I'm growing used to the feel. When did I ever think of less? Gibberish questions rhythmed the onset of doubt. "What if I'll be this, what if I'll be that"--pointless. Reconsidering them, What if I did? Will it make a difference?

And again, I'm awed.

Culture fresh

2009-05-01T09:12:00.000-07:00

Wo eye ni..

Woh hen siang nian mi..

Woh yaw ni..

Woh hen see hwan ni..

~easy words to utter, but difficult to do and pursue..

Marathon

2009-04-27T09:04:00.000-07:00

Fated to love you marathon. Lol. Side tracked a bit of Mandarin Lessons :)

~credits to mysoju.com for hosting my viewing experience. :))

New-fangled means

2009-04-23T08:11:00.000-07:00

My current defense mechanism of trying to forget someone: SLEEPING!

~I don't get you at all. Maybe I expected too much from you. So I guess, from now on, I'll snap out of it.

Testimonial

2009-04-18T03:14:00.000-07:00

Change

enduring.

`a proof that "out of sight is really out of mind"

Tuuuuuuubulaaaaar!!

2009-04-17T07:40:00.000-07:00

Like any other days, since summer began, I've drowned myself to sleep all day long! But today, was no ordinary day, so to speak. We're going to Bulacan! Usually, my dad drives. Wait a minute, not just usually. BUT most of the time. I just get my chance when I start whining my way to my dad's heart to let me. Lol. And so, I did-- hands on the steering wheel, foot on the gas pedal, eyes shifting from left side mirror to rear view, then to the right side mirror and back to the left. Cars swooshing its way pass me, left and right. I see nothing but its silhoutte. I feel the steering wheel shaping the path of the road. An inch of a movement makes a lot of difference. My thighs started to tremble for some reason I couldn't decipher. Nerve impulses at work! :))

Driving on the highway sounds a little too easy for most people, especially the long time drivers. Now, I tell you-- HIGHWAY DRIVING IS INSANE! Haha. I'd rather go for city driving if you were to ask me :P

We arriveed safely at my Tita's House. Thank goodness! I wouldn't know what I'll do if I get just a stratch on the car. My dad would have killed me for it! Lol.

Fun day! A new skill added on to my experience logbook :P

The end!

Luminary

2009-04-14T09:40:00.000-07:00

Tonight, like any other nights,

I look up at the dark starry sky with sheer astonishment.

The jiffy brings me into an otherwordly, illusory and translike situation

Where I am liberated from all the hurt

I'm currently feeling deep within my tattered heart.

I wish to be one with them,

to rocket out the galaxy,

to be looked upon by dazzled eyes from the emerald and sapphire-colored Earth

Or maybe a shooting star, where people linger on the throng of gleaming stars

And make their sought-after wishes in the longest time.

A point in time came,

When I thought about running away from actuality

And forget about all the misery.

Idealism though, aided me in someway

Close-eyed, in a split of a second, scampering away.

When do wishes actually come true? Hopefully soon..

VALOR

2009-04-11T15:23:00.000-07:00

My head's driving me nuts. So much decisions to do. Either I make it, or break it.

I don't want to make the same dim-witted mistakes again. My heart too, is defying my good sense. Confused, yet defined. I want to love yet, I am afraid, very afraid.

God has been giving me enough reasons, enough strength to break every fall.

Yet, I doubt. Audacity calls, a dire need for it. I want to ask you as the crow flies, to tell you how my susceptile threads of patience are slowly winding to its last knots, to pose questions to alleviate my profound search for answers. Uncertainty is devouring every last piece of conviction my soul ever has.

I just need to know, soon--pretty soon. Every God-forsaken day, this sense inside of me primes unceasingly into that something I am beyong doubt troubled. The fear of getting used to the attention--the fear of falling in love.